ah ma passed away on mon 23april.
i didnt want to post.
i didnt want to be reminded of it.
im scared.
im sad.
im regretful.
im sorry.

ah ma is a nice grandmother.
she took care of me when i was young.
she smiled often.
she was cute.
she shielded us from mum's caning.
she played with us.
she carried me out of that stuck position when my head was stucked at the bed's hole.
she was strong.
she is tall.
she is kind.
she is caring.
she doted on us.
we watched tv with her in her room.
we jumped around on her bed.
she was in her late 70s then.

ah ma, im sorry for everything.
sorry for not visiting you when you were alive.
sorry for not bringing food to see you on your birthday and went to the inspiration dinner instead.
im sorry, ah ma.
really.
im unfillial.
i took things for granted.
thank you ah ma for everything, for taking care of me, for bringing me joy.
sorry for leaving you under ah xin's care.
sorry for making you miserable there, eating leftovers, ill-treated by her..
if not you wouldnt have left us so early.
you would have lived to a ripe old age.
ah ma, its all our fault.
sorry ah ma.

ah ma must have become a deity now.
she must be living happily in heaven, isnt she?
ah ma bye bye..
i miss you and i love you. <3

ytd's IT lesson.
adrian helped me to do the car and the background until very nice.
thank him loads.
after school stayed back to make the video thing.
den finally completed it in 1and a half hour.
burned the disc and handed in to mr cheong.
the sastisfaction of completing IT project is simply great.
completing it hen2 you3 man3 zu2 gan3.

today's chinese lesson was funny.
weilaoshi didnt come again and hong lao shi relieved her.
we did the baozhangbaodao thingy.
the two guys sitting behind me(forgot their name) was funny.
they were asking honglaoshi how to write ren2zha1
then honglaoshi was like, "wei shen me ni xu yao yong dao ren zha zhe ge zi, zhe ge zi tai qiang lie le. jiang mei you gong de xin jiu ke hao"
joel: ke shi wei lao shi ma wo men ren zha leh!
stuart: hai you jiang wo men fan jian!
hong lao shi: ni men bu yao luan luan wu mie weilaoshi
then after that still got another funny conversation between stuart and honglaoshi but forgot what is it le. xD

physics is so difficult.
i dont understand the reflection and refraction and fri is the test.
can someone tutor me physics please?

supposed to study hmt and dnt today but forgot to bring home textbooks.
so im here to slack.
jut now i thought i lost my handphone.
and i was so damn frantic!
i called my handphone many times no one answered nor did i hear the ringing.
i looked everywhere also cannot find.
den finally i answered the phone and it was lexin.
she was holding on to my hanphone cos i left it in dad's car.
then today they went out to visit ah ma.
heng ah!
scare me.
if i lose it i'll die!

tmr's timetable: study physics.

i wrote this on the scotch tape and paste it on my table:
i <3 ms chia :)
i # 8b =x

do you understand the i # 8b =x?
its not some sort of equation.
i will treat you bubble tea if you are the first to guess this correctly :D

woke up at 7plus in the morning cos cant get to sleep.
so, polished boots for half an hour before getting ready to go school.
reached school, helped out, went to buy cutleries with bernice.
bernice and i were like wasting a lot of time on buying things lah.
all becos of the guys.
we go the 161 bus stop de ntuc, den go a shop nearby to buy balloons, den went to hg point de ntuc to look for weilun and matheus, den go back the shop to buy plates and bowls.
walao eh.
walk here walk there for 1hr.
after we'd finally bought everything, went back school.
collected dry ice for the ice cream.
den started on publicising our stall.
i approached a lot of ppl lor.
haha. helped the stall to gain more than 5 crepes customers and more than 2 nachos customers i think.
the crepes was nice!
really.
i bought one ice cream crepe and shili tried mine.
then she went to buy another one.
another guy saw her eating and ask her where she buy one, and i publicised our stall again.
haha.so cool.
one after another.
wanted to go haunted house but the queue so damn long.
didnt bother to queue up.
i've got only $5 coupon money so spent them on drinks, crepe and ice kachang.
wished i could have stayed longer but we had to go for the rehearsal.
walao.
the rehearsal was so damn sian, tiring, sweaty, itchy.
its completely a waste of time.-.-

stupid wz and zh affect my mood.
they made me become moody.
walao eh.
they damn qian bian de lah!
ordered tickets from me den last minute say dunwan!
and i had to fork out the $15 on something that i didnt even use!
curse them!
this was what i sent to yt;
walao eh,,i feel like killing them..rip their skin alive, punch their face, kick their ****! may they get knocked down by car, pots fall on them!

lol.
was i being too mean?
nah!
weizhe suck man!
may he become a eunuch!
no girlfriend in his whole life!
fail every subjects!
retain!
walao walao walao.
nothing can ease my anger on him now.
$15 you know?!
asshole!
he's a deperate sicko siao zibizheng!
grrrr.....

reached home at 6plus, bathe, den went to tan tock seng hospital to see granny.
she's so skinny!
her arms and legs were really just bones!
omg.
my arms are fleshier than hers!
2 of her arms= 1 of her leg!
she's so cute.
she's already senile but she could still tell you what happened last time in china!
she talked about food that she last time ate and kept saying how nice it was.
mama and i were listening to her and papa was so bad, didnt even bother to find out what she was talking about.
he just think that ah ma is talking crap.
and he kept saying he's hungry and want to go for dinner.
papa is so unfilial. =x

im so darn tired now.
wana slp le.
nites.

today is a sian day.
sitting with adrian is really sian lah.
we got nothing to talk about except homework and IT.-.-
had 5 periods of boring lessons.
physics damn hard to understand lah.
if you missed out one part you wont know what the teacher is talking about lor.
i think i have to self study le..
maths lesson got back maths test.
22/30.
not bad eh?
1st test was 21/25,
2nd test 27/40
3rd test 22/30
i totalled the the sum and my overall is 73.68%!
A2! =)
chenfan say i higher than him by 10%.
yay~
suddenly so in love with maths.
i love maths! i love maths tuition!
i love mrs khor! xD
after recess was nice!
chi lesson no teacher.
wei lao shi never come .
and no relief teacher!
so shiok sia.
chatted with shili for 1hr.
den art.
mr ooi brought us to art lab den he tried to get hold of the key but didnt managed to or something.
so we were brought back to class.
i like it man.
i dunlike art lab.
by the time we got back its like 1 period gone.
he demo how to draw portrait.
he drew ching yee till so dun look like lah!
as if a woman in her thirties. =x
he so laokui.
den to defend himself, he say he didnt draw portrait for very long le that's why like that. -.-
who believe him?

after school stayed back to help zhiling connect wire to the banner.
after that went for lunch with ching yee, zhiling, bernice and daryl.
and they were still teasing about that topic.
i was defending myself till like so ji dong.
lol.
after that went back school.
cy went for speech day.
bernice,zhiling and daryl helped to carry the tables.
i gave them moral support.lol.
its not i slack.
its just that they dunid my help u know?
bernice and zhiling are such iron lady.
kudos to them!
den after that slack around in the classroom.
and they were back to the same old topic.
walao eh.
sian bu sian?
they not sian i also sian lah.
stupid bernice, daryl and marcus.
bernice and daryl drew the gal and boy holding hands den wrote adrian and my name on it.-.-
marcus took pic of it and posted in his blog.
somemore say what "LOL. I saw this on the board this afternoon, Aiseh...who draw one ah? It doesn't even look like Adrian lah..."
walao eh.
marcus damn suck lah!
act sia.
he obviously know its bernice draw de still act blur.
act blur live longer isit?!

tmr is the homecoming day!
whee~
so looking forward to it.
im gona wear class tee den after that change into mufti.
haha.
i love our class tee too much lah.
going school at 9am den leave at 12pm for the gb award thingy.
may our stall be a success!

oh btw, any of the post might just be the last post cos im gona start on exam revision!
jiayou! =)

this is the 105th post..

today is a happy day!
though its supposed to be a sad day cos its thursday..
but im in good mood today.
mainly bcos of the homecoming preparations.
i went round pasting our pamphlets.
so fun!
i love the phamplet design man.
oh ya!
and the class tee.
they are all designed by our artist zhiling!
<3333

after school went to buy spray paint from paint shop with zhiling, had lunch, then started on painting the homecoming banner.
its so damn darn nice k?
the stupid paint was accidentally sprayed on the floor.
hsiao ching and i had to go round looking for thinner.
walao.
go dnt ask den the assistant say have to get a can first den can pour the thinner.
i've got only 40cents while hc didnt bring down her wallet.
we tried to get from the recyling bin but know wad?
its damn damn disgusting lah!
hc like hold the cover for 3s and she screamed den let go.
there were flies and a brown brown duno wad just crawled very fast.
wad a Can recycling bin!
borrowed money from joy, which she had borrowed from her fren.=x
finally bought a can drink and finished it.
went to dnt room.
mr tan say have to cut the can.
walao.
damn difficult to cut lah.
he give us duno wad tool.
should let us use saw mah.
its so so much faster lah.
after much effort, finally got our thinner!
we went back to the corridor outside classroom and started cleaning the floor.
its so hard to clean with that darn non-absorbent cloth!
we like making it worse lor.
so used tissue instead.

den after we'd painted everything,
we started the rock band.
hc was the drummer and she used the extra cardboards to hit.
ching yee was the guitar player using the broom as the guitar.
and i was the singer, using the bottle as microphone.
zhiling was the audience.
lol.
we took a long time trying to think of what to sing.
cos i duno song lyrics. -.-
den after that ching yee and i played sword fighting.( using the cardboards again.)
we all became so spastic!
oh, den still got play markers.
and we thought of a name for the four of us.
its 乐怡芝晴.
isnt it such a nice name?
it sounds like 乐谊之情 eh?
as if happy friendship de feelings?
lol.
快乐友谊之情?
hahah.
such a meaningful nice name.
after that waited for bus with zhiling at the bus stop and went home.

oh ya!
happy very belated birthday to papa.
we celebrated his birthday on tue.
i made a cake with angelclay for him.
it looked so real can?
haha.
proud of myself. xD

stupid printer.
cant upload pics liao..

btw, rmb to support our stall!
its 02tank!
oxygen tank k?
we selling crepes, nachos and cheese. =)
if wan buy homecoming ticket still can buy from me! :D

ytd
went hg mall ntuc wif mum to buy stuffs.
went home.
go temple pray guanyin den go straight to staff wang's bbq party.
it was fun!
but i can only eat stingray, sotong, otah and mashmallows.
cos they bbqed beef which i cant eat so i can only eat those in aluminium wraps and those with coverings.
nevertheless, it was still a fun experience.
we played flying fox at the playground, ate at the benches near swimming pool, drank drinks while soaking feet in the pool.. etc.
reach home at 10++ and slept at 11++

today
woke up at freaking 8.40am.
went amk hub meet peiying, daryl and cf.
went to check for the price of ice cream.
ordered 6tubs from the sales auntie.
its buy 1 get 1 free so we'll get 12 tubs.
the saleauntie damn nice!
she so friendly den somemore help us book the nice tubs for sat.
we asked her a lot of things and she helped us think how many tubs we would need.
as if she's the mentor for our stall like that.
after the ice cream was gao dim, we went vivomart in vivo to buy nachos, cheese and crepes but cant find nachos and cheese.
the crepes is i find de!
its me ok?
me me me!
lol.
den after that went orchard meet kaiyuan, youliang and yongjian.
at the orchard station entrance, there was a modelscout or wdv you call it.
she was aiming at yongjian but after cf came, she go and aim at cf.
lol. den she asked for cf's particulars.
cf gave her kaiyuan's name but his own number.
den after that he gave her the real name.
the modelscout was saying that they are looking for handsome man.
*vomit*
she gave him the namecard and the name was handwritten.
they read it as magnet.
lol. den i looked at it and found out it was margeret, not magnet.=.="
and we started calling cf handsome man after that.
lol.
went mac to have sundae hot fudge.
then go home.

changed out of skirt to jeans den went to church.
the live interviews was okay..
after that finally have the buffet!
actually right, the dinner wasnt as high class and as nice as m'am had said it out to be.
lol.
after that is the glamour shoot!
haha.
we look nice in it, especially vivi.
after that went home.
today is such a busy day.
as if pao getai like that. x) *glamourshoot*

what's that up there? vivi, me n molivua

retard! x)

haha!
went to compass point with van, hsiaoching, xinan and zhiling.
on the way to the 161 bus stop, van, xinan and i became damn spastic.
we were talking about boobs and bums.
van say if she punch me on my boobs i'll have two holes on my chest.
xinan say van no boobs, no figure.
den the three of us went round attacking each other's boobs and liya's.
lol.
this is so obscene.
we made such a din and we kept on walking the wrong way cos too high le.. xP

ponned in-line skating, neglected IT just to buy a birthday present for kaiwei!
hahahas.
aren't i such a nice nice fren?
im broke.
seriously.
i've got a few cents left.
and that's my whole property.
have to wait for ppl to pay me homecoming day tickets then have money
oh ya.
next sat, which is homecoming day, gb de sec 2s to 4s not going homecoming day.. =x
walao. sad la.
reason being: we are going to have the gb award ceremony from 1 to 5. *sob sob*
i wana wear our class tee!
i wana eat our ice-cream crepes! x(

k, dun talk about all these saddening stuffs le..
plans for friday and weekend!

fri:
morning.
go buy crepes with peiying, dawn, xavier they all..
3.30pm
meet vivi and kaiwei at kovan to buy b'dae present for staff wang, then go her birthday bbq at kovan melody around 5.
sat:
afternoon
go church for the inspiration gourmet dinner which is free!
rmb the reward for getting gold for overall coy?
haha! yea. its that one with staff tay! woo~
sun:
go nephew's one year old bithday chalet!
hahas. going to cycle, skate, eat!
ok, im such a glutton.
fri have bbq, sat have gormet dinner, sun have buffet.
im gona get fat just bcos of these 3 days!

btw, i think im just what wei lao shi said:
jian4 ren2 shuo1 ren2 hua4, jian4 gui3 shuo1 gui3 hua4.
cos my dajie lost her phone on fri, den somebody picked it up and said she going to return her the phone.
then after that on mon she went to her void deck, intending to meet her and claim back the phone.
but the girl didnt ans her phone and so dajie made a wasted trip.
den dajie told her frens abt it.
one of her fren said he would help her gaodim and another fren went to spam that girl's blog.
the fren who going to help her went to her void deck then that girl dunwana return cos dajie's fren spammed her blog.
and the fren that helped dajie was very angry with dajie.

so, i went to that girl's blog and tagged.
actually right, its exasperating talking to her lah.
she just dun get it.
as far as i know, someone devoted to god wont tell everyone about it, wont announce to everyone how she love god, how devoted and faithful she is.
its just an act.
wanted to screenshoot the tagboard but duno the screenshot is under what documents.
so, nvm.

oh ya.
thanks stuart for telling me more about christianity and catholic.
this morning sat with stuart on the bus on the way to school.
then we talked about religion as i told her about the girl.
den at the third stop, his choir frens from 205 boarded the bus and thought i was his stead.
den they kept saying,"stuart, your stead ah?"
and we didnt bothered about them and continued our conversation.
after we had alighted, they say they going to tell everybody, tell nicole, tell their choir mr duno-wad.
and stuart said tell lor.
and i said nobody would believe lah.
stuart and i are just frens that can get along well and chat.
his choir frens are so immature. =x

im getting naggy again.
shall end my post here.

today's such an eventful day.
its a must to blog.

1st thing.( not that important yet)
dnt car was a failure.
charmian go and decrease the number of rubber band so duno if its bcos of that.
dnt powerpoint.
quite ok.
haha. cos is i make one mah. of cos la! (bhb)

music
the drums thingy i go and make out LIYA's name.
haha.
then mrs yeap took over my comp and wrote: liya?
and she asked who's liya, and then called out my name.
then second time i anyhow make again, like scribbling and she called me again.
she: leling, stop what you are doing, you listen to it, its all so shitty!
walao.. i duno how to do mah..

on the way to class after music.. (career guidance)
saw ms abey outside classroom, asked everyone to walk slower.
then van suggested dropping stationeries from the pencil case one by one then we go back and pick up.
after she had dropped one pen, i opened the whole pencil case and dropped it on the floor.
hahahas.
then van, hsiaoching, xinan and liyana helped me pick up all the stationeries.
and i asked them to pick up slower.
lol. it was on purpose that i dropped it lah.

ab lesson
supposed to be career guidance but she spent half an hr scolding us.
ab: do you know that you all have attitude prob?
is that how you treat someone you dont like?
you all cannot do what you all want, you all are very insensitive to ppl's feelings you know?
it is a class tee, how could you all say dont want to include my name?
you all have to do what's morally right, not what you want.
do you treat your boss like this when you dont like him? i believe you all have
the intelligence to know what's morally right and what's morally wrong.
you try puting yourselves in my shoe, do you all wan that to happen?
you all should try to accept ppl for who they are, just like i accept you as my form class, so
why cant you accept me as a form teacher?
you all should change your attitude.
do you all hear me?
are you going to cooperate with me in the future?
class: kept quiet. (some say maybe)
ab: class, ans me!
class: yes.....
ab: pearleen, no isit?
pearleen: i never say no what.
ab: so are you going to cooperate with me?
pearleen: silent
ab: answer me!
pearleen: silent
ab:answer my question!
pearleen: huh? what's your question?
ab: are you going to cooperate with me?
pearleen: orh..yes! yes! ( in an act-enthu way)

oh ya, btw, while she was scolding, we all were laughing lah!
ab: very funny isit? what's so funny?!
charmian! what's so funny?
charmian: (continue laughing even more)
walao, damn funny lah!
she scolded us for half an hour just because she bushuang we never put her name on the class tee..
like wth?
so bhb!
ppl dunwan put her name and scold us so that we would put her name inside.
since she told us to accept ppl for who they are, so what for ask us to change?
siaolang.
so contradictive.
she didnt even reflect on herselves lah!
why does she think we dont like her?
shouldnt she change her attitude too?
isnt she in the wrong too?

chinese enrichment lesson
that veggie teacher really got attitude prob also lor.
she like spent half the lesson scolding ppl also.
first thing.
hsiao ching and van late for lesson for like 15 min and just walk in like that without greeting her nor knock the door.
veggie: go out!
then they stayed outside.
veggie went out and asked them to tuck in shirt before coming in and scolded them for being late.
van and hc went in without doing the formalities again and was asked to go out again.
then finally they did the right things and were seated.
2nd thing
houyu came to her lesson late too cos ab talked to him.
houyu: lao shi hao bla bla bla
veggie: zhe wei tong xue, bang wo gen ta jiang ying gai zen yang zuo.
peiying: say lao shi wu an
houyu: walao! lao shi hao and lao shi wu an, what's the difference? *went out of the classroom and never came back*
hahas.
then veggie damn angry.
3rd thing
veggie: anyone can help me on the visualiser? ( in chi)
nobody volunteered.
christopher: lao shi, jiao ta! *(point to stuart)
veggie: since you wan him to do it, you shall do it. (in chi)
chris: huh? wo bu hui! deng yi xia wo an cuo zheng ge dong xi bao zha!
veggie: *scold scold scold.
4th
zhiling came to ask for class key
zhiling knock on the door then went in
zhiling: anyone got class key?
veggie: repeat the same thing to peiying
so peiying told zhiling what to do.
zhiling: lao shi wu an, wo yao zhao class key
veggie: huh? ni zai jiang shen me? wo ting bu qing chu
zhiling: repeat*
veggie: ni shi hua ren ma? wei she me bu hui jiang hua yu?
zhiling: yao shi (key)
then after that cf say with kaiyuan.
zhling: *turns her back, intending to go out. *
veggie: *stared at her*
zhiling:* turned back* xie xie lao shi
while she ran off, she said so loudly," crap lah!"
lol.

should be that's all lah.
today's such an eventful day!

oh ya!
i dont like liya!
i accompanie her to her bus stop then just nice her bus came and she just ran off!
pangsehing me.
from her bus stop to my tuition centre its like only a less than 5 min walk lah!
den i still got half an hour, ask me do what?
so i walked back to school again, then took bus to my tuition.
no choice lah, too much time le..
i know i very wu liao..
but who caused it?!

i hate liya!

liya, did you see that?
this is such a long post.
i shall end it here.