after not caring about what im eating for like 2weeks my tummy is now a ball of fats.

omg i so cannot eat anything i want. sianzzzzzzz....

that awkward moment when you are so grateful to someone and you dont know how to repay them.

shuwen's going to tutor me math for freeeeeeeeeeeee foreva! yayayayayayayyayay~

argh shuwen is so nice! :DDDDDDDD

when i asked her if she can be my part time tutor..

her: sure! how can i help you? time and date please. (:

i was like, "charge me please! if not i'll feel awkward lol"

her: cannot charge you. not qualified enough. if i charge you i'll be more awkward.

and she went on to asking me about topics i dont know so that she can prepare beforehand.

omg.

and then i said it would be short term only since she's going uni.

and she went, " uni also not everyday need to go school. we'll work out sth. (: "

OMG.

SHO NICE OF SHUWEN i'm gonna faint.

and i feel bad.

for always taking advantage of ppl.

haish.

i was thinking of the saying, " when you gain some, you lose some."

like, while i gained the tangible benefit of having free tuition and thereby improving my maths, i lost the implicit cost of feeling indebted to shuwen. i just feel very bad for taking up her time when she could just stay at home and watch her korean dramas or sth lol. i think i can never be so helpful like her cos when my sis asked me qns at home i'll always teach her very impatiently and even not wanting to teach.

yup so, for shuwen, while there's no tangible benefit from tutoring me, there's this implicit benefit of doing good and feeling good about it when you help someone? yeah and of cos, the cost here is the time and effort spent and the opp cost of tutoring me.

my sis says that i am always on the receiving end and my friends are all offering me help and she asked if i even helped anyone. i felt guilty when i said yeah.. lol. actually i think i didn't rlly helped anyone this yr. hmph.

and just when i was thinking about this while crossing the traffic lights after tuition, a cyclist dropped his wallet while cycling across the road. i picked it up and i had to like run after the damned bicycle and i had to shout unglamly, " excuse me! excuse me! stop!" in order to alert the guy lol. like a retard. and there were many ppl behind. :/

but well, at least i did something good today?

yes, giving is indeed better than receiving. (:

oh and, kailin wrote that i am very independent in doing things on my paper with words of appreciation from friends. when i first read it i actually agreed. like i can just study on my own and go toilet, consult etc on my own. but now that i think about it, maybe that's just being anti-social lol. in many other aspects im actually very reliant on others. like studies, i rely on my friends to teach me and remind me etc. and i always dont know what homework is there and where the lecture is at. lol. and like, pw, i asked so many people for help. math and geog, i relied on junhao and adrian. household chores! i relied on my younger sis to do practically everything. I'm a dependent. :/

i think 14 and SA look alike. hohoho. ;D

fourteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen! :DDDDDDDDD

i realised that my ecs are short.

ok, not rlly the very short short, but around 170?

i think its because of my height that my eye level can only reach that high. lolol.

but short is good. less competition haha. ;D

went to cy's house to study on tue and told her abt this tuition ec from SA.

and it turned out that... he's cy's ec! lolololol.

popular guy in sch it turns out. hmph.

had conflicts with my closest friends which made me really disappointed and angst.

how ironic if you looked at my previous post.

i'm always grateful for all the friends that i have who are always there to support me when i have troubles. seriously i have no idea how to express my gratitude for them and all the selfless help they have rendered. why am i always so lucky to have made such worthy friends? like whenever i have problems, my friends are always around to cheer me up, even if they don't really know my problem, they'll always show that they care. thank you yizhen for always listening to my whines and asking me to take care whenever i fall sick, thank you charmian for offering truthful advices for my own good, thank you joyce for lending me a listening ear, thank you mengxuan for the htht, thank you junhao, percy, chenfan, shili for always helping me with my school work and being so funny all the time! Hahahah. really enjoy your company! ;D thankyou bryan, nick khaw, wesley, adrian yew for all the cheer up msges! oh yes! and really caring seniors like cherilyn, rachael, shuwen, huaqiang who always give me advices and cheering me on in the battle of A's! and of course, great friends like vivienne who never fails to give me worthy advices that always make me feel that the problems i am facing is not that bad afterall! And not to mention adrian low who is always there to brighten up my day and being ever ready to offer help! and thanks kaiwei, zhiling, van, cy, xn for everything you've done. Really. As much as i want to 以身相许, i doubt you'll want me lah hor? Lol. xD

i am a contented and complacent procrastinator. :/

infection on your toe is no joke.

i should just go and see a doctor. :(((

got a B for PW. couldnt believe my ears and eyes. but, yeah. accepted it lah. what to do right. life goes on. ;D

i think my GSC teacher is damn funny.

Our sms conversation:

him: try workbin

me : the last gsc file is on 4mar isit?

him: that you can see junyi essay. only if you all can view then i upload more mah. waiting from you you very long liao.

me: lol that time i tell you can see alr ma. yeah i saw her essay.

him: but the rest blind is it? they all said see nothing. very funny leh.

me: need to go workbin then can see. workspace dont have.

him: so i am not wrong ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.........

me: hahahahahha! omg you're mad. xD

ok anw, im here to say that

ADRIAN LOW is one of the best guys i know on earth!

omg i think i know too many good guys alr.

i mean, adrian low is really helpful.

like, he lends me his spare phone when mine was spoilt.

and its especially going to the bus stop to pass it to me.

and always feeding me with geog research.

and he even wanted to deliver it to my house that day.

omg where to find a good friend like him.

whoever dares to say anything bad about him shall get it from me ok!

and not forgetting junhao who's always there for me too. hehehheheheh.

jc bastards should just die. ok bye.

btw i love jocelyn too! :D:D:D

yes, i got a tumblr, which explains my dead blog.

tumblr rocks! woohoohoo!